Changing oneself is a risky thing.
There's self-improvement, and then there's selling out. In my case, though, I know that I want to change. But getting to that knowledge required much thought, including writing the following.
It's hard to be strong all the time.
Try to walk away and I stumble.
I sleep badly, get hungry, can't eat, but keep moving. Standing still lets the doubt catch up. It's the doubt that kills, that brings the questions. Best to keep writing answers instead.
How can I be so miserable yet productive?
It's because you're strong, my friend says.
I am? I asked.
I see, maybe.
Change is superficially for the better. But how does one change without compromising oneself? If I want to be better, what parts do I keep? Remember, the world sees only the outside.
There's self-improvement, and then there's selling out. In my case, though, I know that I want to change. But getting to that knowledge required much thought, including writing the following.
It's hard to be strong all the time.
Try to walk away and I stumble.
I sleep badly, get hungry, can't eat, but keep moving. Standing still lets the doubt catch up. It's the doubt that kills, that brings the questions. Best to keep writing answers instead.
How can I be so miserable yet productive?
It's because you're strong, my friend says.
I am? I asked.
I see, maybe.
Change is superficially for the better. But how does one change without compromising oneself? If I want to be better, what parts do I keep? Remember, the world sees only the outside.
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